Permatemp

I just found out the actual term for what I am.  I stumbled across this article today http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Permatemp and it describes fairly accurately the situation and culture of my current position.  As the article states, it feels similar to that of a caste-like system with tight restrictions on benefits towards permatemps.  Even though the manager of my department had created some loopholes to allow me some of these benefits, this clear distinction is evident in my day to day job.  The work is fun and challenging, my colleagues have great personalities and are very accommodating, but the system is flawed and inherently decreases the morale of the non-regulars.  Half of my department consists of these "permatemps".  I'm not necessarily unhappy with my current position but I can see myself in a better position.  We will see...

Sunday Service

Today I attended the very late service of the church on Berkeley Campus. Today's passage was about the prodigal son and how he had these big dreams and asked his father for his inheritance trying to make it big away from home. As the story goes on he ends up being a pig feeder and at very rock bottom to the point where he is envious of the food the pigs are eating out of their pods. Then he goes back to his father to repent. He was going to go back and plead to be a hired servant because surely they have more food then that of his current situation. It turns out that as his father spots his coming in the distance, his father runs to him and embraces his son with a welcome heart. The relationship between the father and son in this touching family story is great, but also a correlation to our relationship with God. A constant in our lives is that without his presence, the sin of man will flourish. Whether it be the obsession with money, careerism, or something else, there will be a hole in us... a yearning for something more. C.S. Lewis states, "If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world." What we may perceive as bringing happiness here on earth will not fill this hunger, and we often forget that as we live our daily lives. I myself have not been diligent in attending the church and following Christ. Especially after leaving college and moving across the country. But as the father accepts his prodigal son's return, God welcomes us with open hands. Guide me to be in your image.

Blurry Dreams...

Everyday I think about what I can do to make an impact on the world.  How I can become successful in life, help those that are in need, be a better person and example to be followed.  Part of this will tie into what talents and skills that I have been given.  I believe that whatever my purpose on this earth may be, deals with design and engineering in some aspect.  Whether it be a revolutionary process or an ingenious design, I have narrowed sights to this discipline.  I hope one day to have done something that would not just help myself and those around me, but would benefit the generations to come.  It's very frustrating not having the defined goal in sights, simply poking around and hoping something would click.  Or maybe I just miss my girlfriend.  I pray that He may open my eyes to his vision so that I may carry out His will.

Coincidence?

Love is patient Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud.
This was the message from today's Sunday sermon.

Patience is something we must have for other people. It is something that God has done for us... And there is no limit to it. We all know that when we sin and ask for forgiveness, that he will be forgiving. There is no 3 strike rule and then he cuts you off. No matter how many times we may falter, he will always be there to support us. (However, this cycle of sin and forgiveness should be prevented by strength through Him during times of temptation). But just as He forgives us unconditionally, we should forgive others. Have patience and yearn to be more like Him.

Patience

Lord help me learn patience.  I thought I was a pretty patient guy but I am far from it.  Sometimes I rush through life letting everything fly past right before my eyes.  I rarely take time to just take a step back and admire the greatness around me.  The great opportunities given to me, the good, the bad, everything that I take for granted.

Teach me patience.  Patience for other's mistakes, patience while driving, patience of longing for those you care about far away...

Can you come save me from the airport?

September 15, 2012 - JFK 7:35am     arrival via Virgin America flight VX34

September 16, 2012 - JFK 8:29pm    departure via JetBlue flight 649 Terminal 5

Overview

It's been over two years since I've met someone who I've had feelings for.  I wasn't even searching for someone when I met this special person.  I just happened to be in the right place at the right time.  But I will talk about that story another time.

I just want to talk about the direction that this blog will be headed.  I usually don't speak much; all my friends know this.  The style I will be writing will be short thoughts that may come across my mind at any time during the day... and they will not follow any logical thought process or relevant topic.  This is who I am.

On that note, I plan to one day design a toilet bowl (if not done so already) that will nearly eliminate any splash back that typical men encounter.  My concept design involves an adaptation of the world's quietest room as show below.

I have no expertise as to the relation of acoustic and fluid dynamics, but it's a start.  For now, men will continue to accommodate the invisible splatter.